[	i'm feeling...	|	rushed	]
[	current beat	|	Funeral For a Friend - This Year's Most Open Heartbreak	]

ok i got sick of this name. im not a pnkr0ckprncess. lol.

new one is:

__kissandmakeup

add me!! i will be sure to add everyone else back!

later fuckers.

( its a pointless game. what better lets play. suicide. to kiss yourkids goodnight. What you take from them. What they've taken from you.<BR>To be the last one who will sing you to sleep. To be the last one, who will sing you to... )

ok. when matt and i broke up i seriously was like "jesus what am i going to do?" i was devistated. but seriously. why? all he does now is smoke weed. why would i miss that?? like everyone tells me about it. um? yeah and like i find out he lied about alot of things... and everyone that told him that i wasnt happy deep down [who caused him to break up with me] was right. like i dont know who you were. [he said you were my friends but whatever.] BUT thanks. bc you made my life 100Xbetter. i'm much happier now. and i dont hate you matt. just...dont fuck your life up.

*now is so much better! dating timmy, yeah, i enjoy it. skating with my boys. hanging out with all my friends. being friends with the people who i thought i couldnt be friends with before, because of matt. im totally loving it. i like actually doing things. i like sitting around talking. i like not being bored 24/7. i like actually going to parties. i like playing cards and getting drunk. [cards&beer. now, thats a great night right there.]i love my boys. i like the music. i like the scene. i'm just totally loving my friends. and bc i am cool i will name the important ones in my life:
timmy.        ericka.
keanon.       kiki[? i dont know where she is ever!?]
shawn.        erinT.
eric.        
joe.         
evan.
nick[c].        
erik.
john.
squeak.

<3<3i love you guys so much. without you i would seriously die. i would have no life. and become one of those kids who sit in their house all day and when you see them on the street you know they dont leave the house ever bc they are fat, pale, and wannabe-goth. whoa. i'm def. glad i have you.<3<3

i hate people who do nothing but smoke weed. and fucking do it like a religion ceremony. wtf. hi, im a pothead. cool. you all suck. seriously. get a life. or just uhhh not and be gay. and do nothing but smoke weed. um yeah you are so not cool. psh.

k so how about my one nipple rings is like pushing through. like i can seriously look at my nipple and see the ring through the nipple. wtf. i think either my body is rejecting it [doubtful-none of the other 12 piercings are being rejected] or it was done badly---i vote yes here. so i will probly end up taking that out and getting it redone eventually. which will suck soooo bad bc it hurt when i got it done the first time. and on scar tissue? that will kill.

sometime next week me and erinT are going to get pierced. i am getting my lip done. i havent got pierced in like 2 weeks. maybe 3. =O i think on the left side. erin is getting her nipples pierced. we're outta control. what can i say?

i cant wait to get my skates tomarrow/skate philly. i am soooo pumped.
i need a job too.
and i cant sleep and i keep posting things.
i need to stop that.
i think i may be done.
yep.

<3 goodnight.

well today was a good day. to start out i got PLENTY of sleep. i went to bed around 1:30. and woke up around that same time only 12 hours later. i then went out to my car bc my mom informed me that we ordered grinders to eat and i was voted to go pick it up. of course i agreed for a small fee. as i was walking to my car i decided i wanted to kill the 15 minutes that we had to wait before picking up the food, by skating. as i was skating in my driveway, [looking super hot, just woke up, in my pjs and hot bed head hair...] and i hear a whistle. by golly its eric nickell, and he is driving through the allotment. we had a discussion and then came to the conclusion that we needed to go to canton. he needed to get a new ps2 game and i needed to job hunt. so we parted ways for about 2 hours. i ate my grinders, showered, and got ready. and then we went to canton.

while in canton we only go to belden to look for my future job. i got app's for some rediculous places. but i dont care anywhere is better than fucking drug mart. there is one job i am very excited about. but since like everyone reads this fucking journal and if i mention they are hiring i will get my fucking job stole again so HA. but yeah the manager gave me his 'personal' stamp of approval. and a personal interview. yay!!

after job hunting. and a new pair of pants. a new jacket[which is a kick-ass corduroy kahki jacket] and a bert shirt. i decided i needed starbucks and a cigarette. nothing is better than that.

we then ventured back to minerva. i went home. finished my grinders. timmy called. i paid him a visit. and we then went to watch the boys on the bike jumps. we hung out there for a while and then went around town and skated. well timmy and evan skated. i get my skates tomarrow. =D!!! tomarrow we are going to philly. and i know i am gonna get worked. im still sore from last night. soooo after skating we all went back to timmys and decided we wanted DQ. soooo me and evan and erik went and got it all. we hung out in the garage for a while and then timmy started drinking. and shawn started getting on timmys nerves. and yeah they started like fighting. which would be strange. well timmy pinned shawn. shawn kicked timmy. timmy chased shawn. shawn kicked timmy in the nuts. and then ran. i dont know how it even started. i think just bc they wanted to fight. i dunno... well after that all broke up. timmy needed cigarettes and keanon needed chew. and i needed a break from the drama. so we all went to dairy mart. we came back and everyone was gone. including shawn who wasnt supposed to leave. lol. well me and tim and keanon chill on the porch and just BS about random shit. and then we watch a lil tv. and then i came home.

tomarrow i am going to canton with keanon to turn in my apps and keanon needs a connector for his laptop. then all of us are going to philly to skate again. yay. ok and now like 5 pics. about one picture from every 'activity'. not too great but i wasnt really in the mood today. kinda sore. and i didnt have my camera during the fight. that woulda been some good stuff.

-=and some will say, your revolution is a joke, as i say...=-

( its worth my time, whatever that means... )

today was hell. well at least 9am-5pm was hell. work was so boring. there wasnt anything to do... and i was sooooo tired. i believe i am going to go to bed tonight at 1. i know its hard  to believe but believe it. ok soooo after work i went to timmys bc he had said to. well. i get there and he is passed out/asleepon the couch in a t-shirt and boxers. lol. he's dead. so i tell him i'm gonna go find something to do. so i go to joes. and shawn is there. [joe is on crutches now bc his foot somehow got inflamed...yeah i dont know. but his foot is gross.] we all sat around for a while... and then shawn said we should go to the skatepark tonight. sooo we did. me shawn joe[on crutches] evan morgen tyson jon andy and dan. shawn got out my skateboard and i decided i wanted to try and learn to drop in. in one day. and i havent attempted this before but once. and i biffed hard. so i go to do it today and the first time i fall. the other times its just me getting used to it. i fell really hard once on my side. fucked up my wrist. and my hip. i have a nice burn from the ramp on my elbow. yeah. well after a few hours... we go back to minerva. timmys still in bed. i figured since he works in the morning i wont wake him. i come home to sit in front of my computer. and join shawn and evan in the "we do nothing but sit in front of our computers" club.  its cool you should join. umm i am off tomarrow. and tuesday. then i work weds, thurs, 4-10 and sat 5-10 and THATS IT! then i am done at drug mart!!!! you know the drill. [and now with some pictures for entertainment.]

-=marry me, stay the same, lie to me and try to say you never will.=-

( FUCK IT, I'M FINE! )